|Anybody remember this movie?|
I know that I watched this movie. I can vividly picture the layout of my living room, where I was laying across the couch that was butted up against the long wall. Pops was in his recliner, and that sums up our living room furniture (as well as the total square footage of 50% of my house back then). This movie was clearly playing on our TV. I can remember a few pictures, but the whole story is lost to me. Traumatic amnesia? I think so.
I have NO clue what prompted this conversation. I have NO clue at what point in the movie it happened. All I know is, one moment I'm into some sappy movie about an archangel, and the next minute I'm getting the M-word speech.
"It's OK to masturbate. I used to do it all the time. I've heard you in the bathroom flipping through pages, early in the morning." I believe that is all he had to say, yet it feels like I was held down on the couch for days being tortured by awful masturbation conversation. It was true. He did have dirty mags in the bathroom, which I took it upon myself to explore. I also had found a porno tape, which was my first real introduction to 'what everyone was talking about'. I also have a sneaking suspicion that he caught me workin' it once, but that's never been confirmed.
Regardless, as comfortable as I am with masturbation (as well as everyone else should be), I can't help but feel a little scarred when I think back on this scene. It certainly hasn't affected my performance as I get older, but it may have something to do with my crippling fear of awkward moments on TV and movies.
This story is trumped only be Granny's crabs story, the bottle of Viagra in our medicine cabinet in the bathroom, Pops' penile medical problems that he drew on a notepad for me, being walked in on Granny while 'watching a movie' with a girl, and seeing my mom and her then-husband doing it doggy-style (standing up, which is damn impressive, Mom) in the middle of the night on the way to the bathroom.
So, yeah, talk to your kids about sex..?